Hard Day Today
Today was one of those days where I knew I had a lot that I should get done, but I just couldn’t seem to find the motivation to get out of bed. I kept trying to tell myself to keep going and continue on. It’s just was not working today. I did finally pull myself out of bed. Things are so different now. Nothing feels the same or looks the same. I am reminded of her everywhere I look. Even things she would have hated make me think of her. I think of how she would have reacted, what she would have said or done.
I tried very hard to distract myself with getting organized. I had five weeks of laundry to get washed. I ran errands with my mom early in the morning as well. I spent some time organizing my purse. Throwing out old things and rearranging where things where. Hopefully it will help me to feel a bit more pulled together. I needed to organize my phone. My Blackberry Storm finally broke one me Wednesday afternoon mid text message. I chose to wait out the night and get the brand new Droid 3 that came out on Thursday. I have spent the last few days just getting to know the phone. Today I spent much of the day with my brother Joey getting it organized for me. I also did a tiny bit of retail therapy and ordered myself a couple of small accessories for the new phone as well. Gives me a little something to look forward to.
All in all I did manage to get a lot done today. I just had to keep busy until dinner time with the family. Then Adam came over to spend the evening with me to watch a little tv together.
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